yesterday-scones thai food (yummmmy) a fruit and nut bar gaterade diet pepsi popsicles and some heath bar ice cream (but a small amount)
oh man. but i havent budged. sooooo i gotta eat healthier. now.
today so far-gaterade and a scone.
and ill prolly eat that yummy thai food. oh lordy. its good! oh and i had practice today. I have work today but Im going to decide right now Im not going to have any ice cream. =)
breakfast- granola and an apple- 300? before gym- gaterade and protein bar-350? After gym- chicken, yogurt smoothie and no sugar added no fat popsicle. round up to 300.
Not mad that i did bad today, it's the fact i let my team down, and i finally get a chance to compete and screw it up. But i need to stop feeling sorry for my self. I have goals, and whether anyone thinks i can achieve them when i want to or not shouldn't matter, and though its hard. I just have to get through it.
WACO was good this morning. Iman was so cute! i loved her hair!
I always feel depressed/irritable/sad a lot now. Im like yelling at my friends for no reason, and i fucking eat too much all the time.
gymnastics was bad, i cryed cuz im like effing scared to go for a back on the beam and i feel like im letting other people down as well as myself. LIke, I feel like im not gunna be competing the events i want cuz i can't do stuff or something. or like, people think im a baby and i want people to feel bad for me.
I don't..i just wanna cry to make myself feel better. sometimes its hard to hold it in.
I haven't updated in a while. Lots of stuff. My ankle is still sprained which is retarded. Last night my mom and I finally made up the rest of my floor routine. I like it so much better now. My Back hurts now too. ! Man !
Gymnastics season started. I think it could be a good year. A lot of people improved. BUt Daaannnng Spiz is always so biatchy and i feel like she thinks im sort of faking it. BUt i'm going to the doc on MOnday. Soo
Today is Friday! It feels like a sunday cuz of the days off.
I can't wait for Christmas! I love the holidays. I need to go shopping badly though. Today i should be doing something with GIna or Colleen, like getting out nails done haha. we wanted to do something girly.
Gymnastics today, Sipz came in, she has me penciled in to compete all-around. that could be exciting. My ankle still sucks. I hate it! Muh! Hallween is soon! woopty!
GIna left for New york so i made her cookies and wrote her a note cuz i was in that kinda mood last night. :-) its always nice to surprise a friend with something special.
I did very well today. :-) and i've decided a little treat everyday will keep me from Doing the "B-word".. .. ah i cant even say it. bwahaha
Lunar eclipse was tonite. Pretty nifty.
ALl A's except Earth science and Child Dev. They could change though. HOPefully!
I love all of my friend out there, you are awesome. Comment if you want! :-)
and sarah is awesome especially, even though our precious Gina is missing.
I went to sarah's house yesterday! It was some fun times! I listened to Gina and her sing and then we went to Jamba juice where I was a forgein exchange student. And then i saw some people i knew so they were like um whatever. haha wow.
Today i have SOS from 1-4 which sucks balls cuz that so long! And i wanted to hang with some people but oh well. And we were all going to go to a haunted house but then "they" dewcided not to invite people/uninvite people. So they are gay, but i already knew that. so whatever,
I had a dream that i went to a haunted house. And then i had a dream that i was water skiiing with like four other people and stuff.. it was so weird.
Gina is going to New York soon. Dang I'm going to miss that girl !
went to dcotors today. I go see this orthapedic or whaever on friday morning. I'm kinda scaredcuz my regualardoctor thinks i tore somethingcuz theres a gap/space or something. Gymnastics season is coming up. gosh dang it.
sometimes i hate peopple except Gina, shes always awesome to me. I love her. Aries forever and a day. -sigh-
I had the baby yeterday, andnow i never want kids in my life.
Oh man this weekend might be the best weekend of my life. haha i got the fake baby today. It hasn't cryed yet. But if i update at 3 in the morning, YOu will know why. haha One Tree Hill is on tonight. My ankle better get better soon or I'll cry. I need to get my double back and blinds, and aeriel front walkovers or else i am screwed for this year. :-(
Comment or something im feeling lonely.
Name the three people you would have sex with, at our school.